To the poorest talent (English)

My dear, I implore you, will not die. Blind affection, as it calls itself,If you die, your Vacancy will be at my side forever.
Osamu Dazai, The Defeat of Thought


 Butterflies passing through the sea lie on the surface of the sea. And the wings, weighed by the water, fly away. Even if the little existence by the side of death disappeared, the ocean would only stir. The scent of the waves swallows you up, and Garcia Marquez compares the sea of dead bodies with the scent of roses. The smell of the tide is mixed with the smell of the rose and the perfume of the dream rose becomes thicker with the dark at sunset.

It falls asleep, the sun’s reverie.

Only the sound of the wave remains, and reverberation attempts. Nobody goes looking for the body of the butterfly.

Just the right amount of desperation, Debussy’s music called La Mer.

2018 was the centenary of Debussy’s death,

In the end, consciousness didn’t move a finger.

Psychology is the study of life and death, and the mechanism of mind has been proven and tested many times. Even what is natural to the mind is still at the research stage.

The research is released and then buried, In our epoch, Christianity was strong in its total affirmation of life. Doctrines existed as doctrines, the assumption that God’s love existed unchecked, and yet my heart was dry.

As for love, as far as human love is concerned, it is deduced in psychology through scores and circumstances. However, he may still be interested in me, he may still look at me sexually, but an inner love is unimpeded as faith. It was more certain that this supreme thing was God’s love than man’s ever-changing love.

Believe or not believe, the condition exists as a good response apart from consciousness.

Should I ask for the love of God to heal me, or the love of a man to heal me?

I couldn’t believe it either.

First of all, I couldn’t form words with my consciousness any more, if not in fragments.

Keeping it hidden, I kept quiet about how I couldn’t write my work anymore. In the middle of all this, I lied, thinking of my dried-up love.

I took a pill mid-way through the meeting,Another day I had to take a pill before I got to the hotel.

I paid extra for the water,The shell of the drug resembled this butterfly which was never searched. All secrets lie in my belly, devouring me alone.

There was an earthquake of magnitude 6 in June 2018. The earth quaked and I had no idea what had happened. I thought I could die, but I didn’t call the guy I was dating back then.

Because it would hurt me if he walked out on me,I avoided it because I was scared of the result. I should have said goodbye before.

Ugliness and malice exist in human love but love also includes believing. Love between human beings falls and becomes sinful, but the love of God goes beyond human understanding.

Human beings believe in protection,Human beings choose their own selves rather than the love of others, but God does not.

Psychology, philosophy, this unholy notion that without this ugliness, there would be no vitality in life. We are raised by fate, so we mix them together and, blushing through our enthusiasm, we are still precious today.

Each time I repeat a bit of despair, a smile fills my face and Little by little, we become increasingly convinced of our limitations.

――The angels come and mock us because we are not so happy in heaven.

Only today, 3 years later, did I read part of the suicide note. I was writing as if I didn’t hate anyone, when I really did. And the writing was terrible.

I can understand that my language was broken and that I could not write any more. It seems like I’ve been in a desperate situation, but I couldn’t write, not just today, I couldn’t write long ago.

It was in October, always warm and damp, the day of the International Mass. I was afraid of something, afraid of something, and hate spread from one form to another.

My friend cleaned the bloodstain and Adam the cat came. So I thought he was an angel. I remembered Lucifer that day, but he was missing. Adam had many blessings. Adam, why I need him forever brings me back to that day.

We often see people who have been victimized by others reveal their worst days when they succeed. People say” ” I took revenge on those who discriminated against me, I overcame the fact that I was oppressed” Well, people usually connect to their worst days and So we stay away from the best.

Quiet tames the bad days, but the best days are crushed by the bad days,Tranquility tames the worst days, but the best days are crushed by the worst days.

On this day in 2021, I did not dare choose any part of the Bible. I chose those words by Osamu Dazai, who says that if you die, I will miss the empty space. I was under the impression that his love for me was a divine word. Perhaps this is what I wanted to hear,But I couldn’t hear that.

I’ve been helped by so many people that I don’t know who thanks everyday.

I don’t know where I’m going since the most unwise day.

And that voice reading gave a beautiful voice to my long-lost world. It has been a long and thoughtful journey. I want to rest beside this beautiful voice now, so that the worst days are far away. I want to write something that will use that beautiful voice. The butterfly has awoken from sleep. I promised you a trip, and I’ll go someplace with you.

Readers and writers

To the poorest talent



2016 I called an ambulance for chest pains.

2017 I was constantly on stabilizers, anti-vertigo, and various medications.

2018 Words became choppy in my consciousness.

2021 Recovering on heart and liver medication.(Stop taking psychotropic medication and change to heart medication such as Vasolan )

It was Dazai Osamu who wrote this suicide note: “I can no longer write”

I had no awareness of the words, but I knew them.

It’s not that I couldn’t think about a story, it’s just that there was a time when my words went missing. I don’t mean whether it was a psychological problem or a side effect of the medicine,It took me a while to settle everything without it getting too heavy.

Even after my Catholic conversion, in some of the best days of my life but I got flash backs from that day.

For instance, when people succeed, they expose the worst days of their lives.

I declare that I am overcome.

In my best days, I can’t stop thinking back to my worst days. For me, in the past three years, there has not been one day that I have been able to really rejoice, except for Adam.

I want to reorganize my articles and, in a number of ways, reconstruct them.

Starting with him doing the readings.

I would like to thank everyone for their help. Thank you very much.

The poorest talent, from the gospel. ” Blessed are the poor in spirit”.
























2016年 胸が痛いと救急車を呼んだ

2017年 常に安定剤と眩暈止め、色々な薬が手放せなくなった。

2018年 意識の中で言葉が途切れ途切れになっていった。

2021年 心臓と肝機能の薬で回復傾向(向精神薬の服用停止、ワソラン錠等の心臓の薬に変更)











The Goldfinch(English)

The Goldfinch Carel Pieterszoon Fabritius

Should be a reflection of something purer.
André Paul Guillaume Gide

On 12 October 1654 an explosion in an explosive’s depot caused a large extent of casualties.

Many Dutch paintings were destroyed in the explosion, and this also damaged the workshop. One of the victims was Rembrandt’s pupil, Carel Fabritius, who was also killed in the accident. This captive bird is still alive today, even though it has lost its owner.

No doubt many people will agree that the “fate” of this painting is the reason for much of its re-evaluation.

Carel Fabritius was an Rembrandt student. His paintings have been influenced by Rembrandt. We can find Rembrandt’s influence in the way he painted light. Rembrandt’s early works show a wide range of colors, but he gradually developed a basis of brown and grey tones, with brighter colors used for the most illuminated objects. He also uses chiaroscuro, a compositional technique that clearly defines light and darkness.

Its influence is also felt by his pupil Fabritius. Overall, the work is completed in opacity, but the color contrast gives the wall a strong light. The walls are darkly shaded by the feeder and the birds as chiaroscuro,  Tarnished natural yellows create a psychological effect of light and shade. What distinguishes this painting from that of Rembrandt, in addition to choosing the bird as a motif, This is using hard paint..Like Van Gogh and the impressionists.

The bird’s background is a flat wall, but we can imagine that what the bird is watching is daylight.

By avoiding all human symbols and imagery, the bird sees the purest things. The light is reflected in her eyes and the imagination is always there. This painting, dressed in “Amor Fati” is a bird who never knew the escape.

This bird lives for a long time and is not capable of flying high.

It was the movie “The goldfinch”(2019) that made this painting instantly famous of our time.

In order to explain the film, a boy and his mother visit a museum and find themselves caught in an explosion. While they escape, the boy steals the goldfinch which has survived. Inspired by the destiny of the original painting of real life, I watched this movie in 2021 with no previous information. The film was inspired by the destiny of the original painting of actual life,and I got a sense of déjà vu from the paintings used in the film.

Had a life of his own for a film accessory. Nothing symbolic at the time, but the color palette was classic. The bird understands the light and is free from superfluous insights. It’s too far from being allowed to exist as a painting, and I’ve seen it before. During the movie, I thought so much about this painting that I didn’t remember exactly what it was about. I didn’t remember exactly what they were talking about, However, the characters began to say that it was a Dutch painting. I looked through the catalogue on the shelf in the other room, thinking maybe I saw this painting once.

In 2012, I was still watching the painting.

I placed a sticky note in the catalogue of Mauritshuis’s exhibition.

The page was “The Goldfinch”. Many Dutch paintings were produced during the boom in microscopic observation, So these are essentially specific tables. Rembrandt’s “Canticum Simeonis” was extremely bright. And Vermeer’s “Het meisje met de parel” tour. I passed by smiling faces art, smiling faces art, and found ‘Goldfinch’ in still life.

It seemed like an incomplete picture. After the human smile, the innocence of the animal, the feathers reflecting the pure light, looked even brighter. In the midst of all these still life’s, observed as the curious mind desires, there is a single and foreign imperfection.

This bird looked at the sky, far beyond the scope of the microscope. This picture was not intended to be framed. Whether it was a piece of trompe l’oeil or a case cover, the purpose of this painting is unknown. In my opinion, the exhibition was not very good, except for the “The Gold finch” and the “Canticum Simeonis” by Rembrandt.

The sound of the birds’ footsteps and the sound of its chain appear to come from a silent painting. Never has this bird been overshadowed by the trials and temptations of fate.

Imperfection, captivity and flight – these three points can strike an agreement with the infirm.

First of all, the downside of not knowing somebody didn’t make it easy for me to talk about that bird. I didn’t have the background or the information to keep it to myself.

The bird hides in the blind spot of memory, but fate so loves him that he comes back alive.

The moment I opened the catalogue, the map of the museum and the advertisements of the museum at that time fell out of the book…Kind of reminded me of a bird wing flapping.

 The way missing memories can be brought back to life is a reminder of the movement of time. Especially when it’s a sign of hope, That’s like a revelation of God.

Loved by fate, this trompe l’oeil, what is it that deceives? Even in the museum, this bird saw the light. A number of times, and through space, this bird sees the light,

I was ready to be deceived again, which made me feel like receiving the light.


Translation, proofreading of past articles has not been completed. I’m finishing up this month.

I am so sorry for the late submission.

The Goldfinch

The Goldfinch:Carel Pieterszoon Fabritius







Amor fati(運命愛)に纏われたこの絵画は、飛翔することを知らない鳥だった。


 この絵を現代で一気に有名にしたのは映画「The Goldfinch」(2019)だった。美術館に母親と二人で訪れた少年は爆発事故に巻き込まれる。少年は、逃げる際に生き残ったGoldfinchを盗みだしてしまう。元々の実在の絵画の運命をモチーフとして作られた映画だが、2021年、私はこの映画を前情報無しで見ていた。そこで使われている絵画に既視感を覚えた。映画用の小道具、という短命の運命にしては生命力があった。たかが鳥の絵ではあるが、背景の色が現代の発想で描いたわりには古典的な描写だった。光を理解していて、余計な思想が無い。絵画一枚として存在するにしては構図が右に寄っている、それにやはり見たことがあった。映画の話が頭に入って来ないほど、この絵のことばかり考えていて、登場人物達がオランダ絵画と言いだしたので、もしかしたら一度見たことがあるかもしれないと、別室の本棚から図録を探した。


マウリッツハイツ美術展(2012)の図録に付箋を貼っていた。そのページが「The Goldfinch」だった。オランダ絵画は顕微鏡等で観察がブームだった時代のものもあり、基本は精密な絵画が多い。レンブラントの「シメオンの賛歌」は圧倒的な異才を放っていた。フェルメールの「真珠の耳飾りの少女」目当てに美術館のコースが決まっている。人間の笑った顔、笑った顔の作品を素通りしながら、静物画のエリアで「The Goldfinch」を見つけた。









The Goldfinch(2019)



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「へぇ? お前はいつクリスチャンになったんだい」













あなたがたは、わたしが語った言葉によって既にきよくされている。 わたしにつながっていなさい。そうすれば、わたしはあなたがたとつながっていよう。枝がぶどうの木につながっていなければ、自分だけでは実を結ぶことができないように、あなたがたもわたしにつながっていなければ実を結ぶことができない。 わたしはぶどうの木、あなたがたはその枝である。もし人がわたしにつながっており、またわたしがその人とつながっておれば、その人は実を豊かに結ぶようになる。わたしから離れては、あなたがたは何一つできないからである。 人がわたしにつながっていないならば、枝のように外に投げすてられて枯れる。人々はそれをかき集め、火に投げ入れて、焼いてしまうのである。 あなたがたがわたしにつながっており、わたしの言葉があなたがたにとどまっているならば、なんでも望むものを求めるがよい。そうすれば、与えられるであろう。 あなたがたが実を豊かに結び、そしてわたしの弟子となるならば、それによって、わたしの父は栄光をお受けになるであろう。 父がわたしを愛されたように、わたしもあなたがたを愛したのである。わたしの愛のうちにいなさい。 もしわたしのいましめを守るならば、あなたがたはわたしの愛のうちにおるのである。それはわたしがわたしの父のいましめを守ったので、その愛のうちにおるのと同じである。 わたしがこれらのことを話したのは、わたしの喜びがあなたがたのうちにも宿るため、また、あなたがたの喜びが満ちあふれるためである。わたしのいましめは、これである。わたしがあなたがたを愛したように、あなたがたも互に愛し合いなさい。

Anniversary of one’s passing

ChrisKyogetu Acrylic painting(2004)incomplete

































Assumption of Mary English.Ver

"Was the author of the Book of Revelation really not under the influence, so to speak, of a being who was in conflict with Jesus Christ? of the 'Schatten', as it is called in psychology" C. G. Jung, "The Aion".

A great sign appeared in heaven: a woman clothed with the sun, with the moon under her feet and a crown of twelve stars on her head.  She was pregnant and cried out in pain as she was about to give birth.  Then another sign appeared in heaven: an enormous red dragon with seven heads and ten horns and seven crowns on its heads.  Its tail swept a third of the stars out of the sky and flung them to the earth. The dragon stood in front of the woman who was about to give birth, so that it might devour her child the moment he was born. 5She gave birth to a son, a male child, who “will rule all the nations with an iron scepter.”And her child was snatched up to God and to his throne.  The woman fled into the wilderness to a place prepared for her by God, where she might be taken care of for 1,260 days.

 Then war broke out in heaven. Michael and his angels fought against the dragon, and the dragon and his angels fought back.  But he was not strong enough, and they lost their place in heaven.  The great dragon was hurled down—that ancient serpent called the devil, or Satan, who leads the whole world astray. He was hurled to the earth, and his angels with him.

 Then I heard a loud voice in heaven say:

“Now have come the salvation and the power

    and the kingdom of our God,

    and the authority of his Messiah.

For the accuser of our brothers and sisters,

    who accuses them before our God day and night,

    has been hurled down……


On August 15, 2014, Assumption of the Blessed Virgin,I was baptized as a Catholic. Most people are baptized in the spring at Easter, but this was the only year that the baptismal service was also held in the summer. I had planned to attend a baptismal course with my fiancé at the time, but I went to the church he had chosen in June, just to see what it was like. While I was taking baptism alone, I had to attend a year-long study group, but the priest in charge at the time said he could fit me into the baptismal service in August. I asked my fiancé to let me in without asking for confirmation. At that time I didn’t know if it was an invitation from God or a betrayal, but I didn’t know that my relationship with him would deteriorate.

He intended to continue to love the Bible without being baptized, But I was convinced that he would come later, and I found myself with a bunch of lilies on August 15.

When the Bible reading began, “The temple of God in heaven was opened, and the …… woman was pregnant, but because of the pain and suffering of giving birth to a child, the …… dragon wanted to give birth to a child,” I turned my head and began to I had the chills when the reading started. is Revelation 12, the maiden, and the dragon. The dragon is said to be a heretical being and the woman is the Virgin Mary. This world of Revelation is the end of humanity and is depicted in cryptic prose and lyricism. In this chapter alone, This prefigures the dream of Joseph in Genesis 37, and the Bible itself writes about the beginning and end of the world.

The reason why I was so moved by the story is that the maiden and the dragon is a Jungian archetype, which I also dealt with in my work “Pagaea Doll”, in which I compared it to the dragon legends of East and West. Like the protagonist “Shoko”, I have been pursuing the “virginity of the imagination” since I was a child. As in the story of Borges, one can imagine and still resemble someone else. Without sympathy and admiration, the imagination is wounded, flattered, thirsty and lonely, aging and dying.

When I was painting in my teenage years, I sometimes thought that when I was free to create, I couldn’t find what I wanted to paint because I couldn’t find what I wanted to paint. The world I wanted to paint depends on my capacity to describe it, and I couldn’t even approach it. What I found out, what I might have known if I had studied philosophy, Hadd was already a pioneer in philosophers. It’s always changing my mind, searching for new discoveries. The time when the eye blinks, or the time to fall asleep, the opportunity is unpredictable and even the notebook is not ready. Without any time to think, drawing assignments arrive, study assignments arrive, and I waste my time on dreams.

 When I finally said that I wanted to make a religious painting, the adults did not agree with me, and I set off on a journey to concretize myself, without financial means.

Jung’s “archetypes” are even deeper than Freud’s unconscious: C.G. Jung remarked that Jesus and Mary do not appear directly in dreams as much as church people do. The Sun is Jesus, the Lilies are Mary, and they exist as symbols in the field of collective unconsciousness. Freud did not deny this statement from his own, but said he was having problems with it.I would later learn that Freud was right. Jung’s work is laborious for a man as exhausted as his patient. Myth and faith may have been a fading influence of 19th century science, but even if Jung’s theory was correct, it was probably obvious that neither theology nor religion, or more specifically myth and fable, would become stronger in the 20th and 21st centuries, and that the masses would no longer understand them. That is why the “archetypes” are so isolated from their patients.

I was in primary school when I wrote the story of the dragon. I already had an idea for the story of Shoko’s childhood in “PangaeaDoll”. I knew the book of Revelation chapter 12 from a Bible I found in a Christian friend’s house. I didn’t know what it meant, but it fascinated me as a fantasy story about the dynamism of this wriggling dragon and the obsession with a maiden (the Immaculate Heart of Mary).

What do I want to show? I was looking for a place for the significance of the “something” that was born. Eventually I quit painting because I no longer wanted to be understood, and I lived in my writing. I will live for my existence, even though no one in particular asks me to. In order not to be crushed by others, my thoughts go beyond my language and my imagery and become even more passionate. An inexpressible pain in my chest, my soul dreams of rising. For such a man, the dragon was a symbol of uncontrollable ” Sensation “. It followed the maiden Mary as she fled from the clutches of King Herod. It was such a struggle to have faith or not to have faith. There was doubt and a constant shadow of the Bible. Such is the world of the unconverted. It was always ridged like a serpent and moved with a lot of heat.

The dragon who wanted to eat the maiden (Jesus) seemed to me to be a conflicted baptismal candidate itself. Especially the dragon of chapter 12, which followed Mary, may be so. The Baptist is also a pagan.

Nevertheless, after his baptism in 2014, the maiden and the dragon were not read until today, in 2021. Even the Assumption of the Blessed Virgin Mary festival was not attended after this. Even though they participated in other ordinary Masses and ceremonies. They were not there. For a long time, I never regained the sense of baptism.Part of the reason I wanted to write another track, and also because I had already lost the dragon to my heart. I never thought about grief, a pagan symbol.

Every time I went to mass, I wore a white veil, but after my friend died, I wore a black veil. I began to remove the veil in time, and although I always carried a Bible, I no longer do.

The world I saw after my baptism was a world of grace and solitude waiting for me.  The soul of an artist can only live in his work, and with that revelation in my heart, I had been hopeful, only to find myself on the edge of a cliff.

In 2018, I was standing in front of suicide.

Sound is said to be uninformed, and so is the existential nature of language. The tongue is a background of symbols, on which concepts exist. A concept has a meaning as a word, but it is synthesized by a series of words. The linguistic world is a composite one. Languages are not by themselves. Although you need someone to understand it, it is often not understood.

It was Christianity that clarified why words existed, as John’s Gospel says: “In the beginning was the word, and the word was with God”. Just as in Russia, where there was no clear language in the beginning, language was created as Christianity spread.

The language is isolated. But it is to God, it is the mystery of the word. and I didn’t feel so alone.

Many have said to me, “Why won’t you write free?”

I’ve been asked by many people, but I’ve never answered. I don’t feel lonely with this question any more, because I realize that I don’t need to answer it in particular. What started as giving up is already “freedom”.

The beginning was a painful “freedom”. Baptism did indeed give freedom. The surrogate mother who wiped the holy water dripping from my hair, the priest who celebrated, all those who surrounded me, we will never gather in the same place again. They will never come together again. The bouquet of lilies that I carried at that time is still blooming in my memory, although it has vanished already. The people I loved then, the people I left, the people I met, the sight I saw when I looked up, where I smiled towards, the characters of this moment, my emotions, will never represent my “now” again, they will never come into my sight.

For a long time I wondered whether I should accept this disappearance or leave it as a memory of my baptism again.

After seven years of hesitation, I finally looked back on this time.

Indeed, at the time of my baptism, my soul was joyful.

15 August 2021 

baptismal certificate


「黙示録の作者は、いわばイエスキリストと対立した存在の影響を本当に受けていなかったのだろうか? 心理学でいうところの「影」の」 C・Gユング「アイオーン」




「今や、我々の神の救いと力と支配が現れた。 神のメシアの権威が現れた。」





何故そこまで感動を覚えたのかといえば、乙女と竜はユングでいうところの元型を私の作品の「Pagaea Doll」でも扱ったところであり、作中で東西の竜伝説に準えていた。主人公の「翔子」のように、私は子供の頃から、ずっと「想像力の処女性」を追及していた。ボルヘスの話でもあるように、人は想像しても誰かと似てしまう。想像力というものは共感や称賛を得なければ、傷ついて、媚びを売り、渇愛と孤独を抱えながら、老化して死に向かっていく。十代の頃に絵を描いているときに時に思っていたのが、自由創作の時に描きたいものというものを探すときに、自分の描きたいものについて悩みが尽きなかった。描きたい世界は描写力に左右されて、理想に近づかない。哲学を学んでいたら分かることが、自分が発見したことは既に哲学者が開拓していた。新しい発見を探しながら、私の思念の中で常に変容する。瞬きの瞬間や、眠りにつく瞬間、その機会は何時なのか、予測不可能でノートさえも間に合わない。自分自身が、その変容にさえも追いつかずに、出来る範囲で中途半端な作品が生まれる。内観する暇もなくデッサンの課題が来る、勉強の課題が来る、私は夢の中まで時間を使った。























SoarⅠ (English.ver)

Catholicism had yet to be philosophically organized.
Simone weil

There are many genres of fiction today, One of the things I love about literature is that it makes use of what is really only a record. A simple lost love can be embellished by a single word, a forgotten dead can have a meaning. The loneliness that people tell us to forget, the happiness that seems so ordinary, all depend on our own sensibility, and we can decide whether our life is just a record with oblivion or a shining life.

It is left to the sensibility of the writer to verbalize and leave behind the succession of moments that disappear from the world that no one picks up. Perhaps those who have such a point of view are those who are terrified of the moment disappearing as it is. Some people are happier to forget, others to talk about their misfortunes, so that their loneliness becomes cathartic through monologue.

For these people, the ability to speak their own language is important.

As for me, I create in the fictional world the heat that I did not live in the real world. There may be many emotions that I have killed for social reasons, but the emotions that I could not delete and the place where my faith lives is the fictional world. It is an introversion, but an extroversion that challenges the world. I’ve never been pessimistic about it.

Artists are left with only two choices: mere madness or genius. Van Gogh and Caravaggio are good examples. And Emilie Bronte, whose inner world was immeasurably darker than the one she wrote about in “Wuthering Heights”. A true artist does not look for “genius” to win the admiration of others. The poetic sentiment and the way of looking at things that he could not abandon is a God-given gift, and that is what he is in Christianity. The sensibility that almost killed me many times when I was urged to be social was never socially disadvantageous to me in life. What’s next is to find out if this really was a gift from God.

I want to know the answer to the question of whether it really was. Vladimir Nabokov’s “The Gift” is such a story, and it is also the story of Nabokov’s alter ego in exile in Russia.

One term I have coined is “Soar point”. It has taken me many years to get this theory down to an understanding.

I’m going to write about it in an irregular series.

 In the fictional world, there is no standard height of land. It is a world of language.

I try to write about light, temperature, color and space. The writing is plain, sober, rhyming, It is pregnant with poetic sentiment,

The words are like music, even the spaces between the letters are meaningful, and the protagonist walks through the world I have created, manipulating them.

The first work, ‘Pangaea Doll’, is based on a real patient in a laboratory in England. She was a patient who was strange, but who did not know where she had gone in the real world. The intersection of dream and reality was a psychological and scientifically possible delusion. But the name of the disease was something I made up. It was my first fictional world.

In the second work, “Iconograph”, there is no prominent fictional object, but the clock tower of a mechanical clock becomes imaginary. The phenomenology of the “bird’s nest” is based on the 13th chapter of Matthew’s Gospel.

Jesus was at sea, on a boat where no plants could grow. So he compared the Word of God to a seed. Some seeds can be sown in one place, but the birds will come and eat them. Other seeds fell on stony ground, where the soil was not deep enough and they sprouted quickly, but when the sun came up, they were burnt and withered away because they had no roots. It is difficult for the plant, the Word of God, to grow. ”Listen if you have ears.“The boy who hears these words and The protagonist, Kawamura Koune, goes on a journey of thought to hear God’s blessing. In Japan, Christianity is frowned upon if you don’t like it, and the characters cross over from longing for faith to oblivion, to disgust, and back to blessing. If this were the only explanation, people would mistakenly believe that there is no romance in this novel. That’s the trouble. There is love and death in this story too.

But the first reason I don’t say this is because I believe that waiting for the assessment of a mediocre love affair or death is just an emotional assessment. It is a sad fact that the real world is the same way. Death is equal, but there are special graves for special deaths, and classes for the deaths of the unconscious and the body. But the soul is equal, and the literary world can save even the most unlikely of beings. Literature must have the fervor to express what the masses have ceased to say. Love and death cannot be conveyed by begging only for sympathy, even if it is true. The soul may live without emotional sympathy if it is metaphorically told how the world works and how God works in it. The external world is rarely captured. But the enrichment of the inner world can make even an empty life seem like a footnote.

Many times I have been opposed to adding philosophy or religion to literature, but I have never given in. Perhaps it is because I know how cruel it is to assess the feelings of others. It follows that one’s own words do not grow, and that the same is true of God.

If the Word of God is a plant, it is the bird that spins it into a nest that grows beautifully. The bird’s nest is not only a bird’s nest, but also a part of the human world that it picks up and builds.

My fictional world is such a phenomenology. It represents the formation of orientation, the world created by orientation, while waiting for the analysis of existence. My literature is thus an amalgamation of spins, and there is no such thing as a complete lie. The heat that did not live in this world becomes a fiction.

Just as a bird’s nest still does not know exactly how to nest with precision, so I weave my experiences, my fantasies.  From the fictional “land” of the precise nest, uncertain of how it is completed, my story takes Soar. And the seeds dropped by these birds of fancy can grow or disappear. The reader’s understanding constructs a third world as a plant that grows. That image is both sad and hopeful.

The story must always take flight and Soar .

I have called it the ‘Soar point’.

Continued from (2) (Irregular)

Victim’s detention centre(English.ver)

Johan Liebert is the titular character in “Monster“but Not drawn by the author. It’s a homage.
Author unknown. Additions are required.

At that moment, that monster appeared in front of me.

Was Mom trying to help me?
Was she confusing me with my sister?
Which one?

Mom! don't let go!

Monster Naoki Urasawa


Sometimes I believe that being a victim is like being in a prison camp. Once you have tasted it, you can’t communicate it to others, even in your own language.

Since birth, I have found myself in the camps many times. The first one I remember was when I was seven years old. It was a female teacher. If my ego, my present experience, was broken, it was because of this teacher. Still, no one helped me. In the midst of hatred and sorrow, I found the light. That was the first liberation. I don’t know who was teaching me at that time. But my monologue grew as I acquired a phenomenological vision. The sky in my memory was always blue, but the words were always gloomy. This was affirmed by psychology. It said that man is a coexistence of the definite and the anti-definite.

In phenomenology, the “moment”, the present rather than the future or the past, becomes prominent.  In it, the childhood mind imagined the light of the future in the “moment”. That was my sustenance. As he entered the camp again and again, he noticed that the light was becoming weaker and weaker. When the light gets weaker, I notice that I have compatriots. I can see better in the dark, I guess that’s a sign that I’ve grown up.

I’ve seen all kinds of victims, and I’ve seen people who choose to go to jail. The highest penalty for perpetrators is the death penalty and victims also go to jail.

I’ve seen it happen to some people, they think they’re going to die.

I find myself saying to myself.

“Forget it”

Then the signal for release rings and I am let out. My wounds had healed and I had no right to speak. My words became a barrier between us and the rest of the camp.

On love and justice, I have written repeatedly since the opening of this blog that love and justice can be contradictory, but this time I would like to talk about John Paul II. Mehmet Ali Ağca , a Turk, shot John Paul II on May 13, 1981, but saved his life. Mehmet Ali Ağca was sentenced to life in prison, but was pardoned by the Pope who shot him.

 John Paul II was later the victim of another assassination attempt, and in his later years he suffered from Parkinson’s disease and the after-effects of the assassination attempt.

Mehmet Ali Ağca was saddened by the Pope’s death and was only allowed to offer flowers; I only know that he hopes to be a Catholic priest in 2016, but I am not certain.

I don’t know what was truly in John Paul II’s heart, but his writings are full of light.

I do not know the true heart of John Paul II, but his writings are full of light, and they are also full of darkness. It is beside the light.

It is not a warning to blind sinners, but a guide to the lost sheep.

In the chapter “The Rejection of the World” of ” Opens the Door to Hope” he says: “When the true teaching is unpopular. When the true teaching is unpopular, it is unacceptable to seek easy popularity”.

The camps in which the victims were held were also filled with rivalries. Invariably, people with revolutionary fantasies would begin to attack others.

They start attacking people. Then there is a thinly-veiled gathering of those who have been “deceived by simple words”.The victims suffer not only temporary damage, but also secondary and tertiary damage, the rejection of the world.

Jesus Christ says in Matthew 7:13,14 that the road to eternal salvation is neither wide nor comfortable, but rather narrow and difficult. The Saviour Christ, whom the masses misunderstand, does not teach a comfortable way.

He does not teach a comfortable path. In fact, many people mistake God for the Saviour and criticise him.

Sometimes the Saviour is really an “idol” created for the world or by popular desire.

Victims are the “idols” to whom we must pay attention. If you know what this means, you know what it was like to be a victim in a prison camp. When they go out, they will not forget what it was like there. Those who don’t know what it means are hypocrites who don’t know that they are the mass media and that they are hurting people. He is a delusional revolutionary who never doubts his own “goodness”.

People who don’t know the threat of the sword are hurting many people with their pens.

They are no longer heading for the camps of the victims.

It is heading for the real prison, where criminals go.

In the book of Revelation, the beast is a number and has no name. Revelation 13 speaks of a beast with ten horns and seven heads, “Who can stand against this beast?  Who can fight against this beast? The answer was a demand for wisdom. (Verse 18)

The wise man should consider what the number of the beast means.

The number represents man.

The beast is man. Those who know this are humble.

The hypocrite only wants others to bear arms. The Saviour lets them know that he heals.

The hypocrite is quick to invite sympathy with weakness. The Saviour bears his wounds in silence. For he knows that the hypocrite will come soon.

I couldn’t say “forget it” to one of the victims who was more pitiful than me.

I will never forget the darkness, because it is still on my mind. I wonder where he was taken.

I wonder where he was taken. I wonder if he ever saw the light.

It is the hypocrites of today who have cut off the network of communication.

What is easy to understand tells us about darkness. What is hard to understand is that we all have it.

We all have it. We all have a beast in our hearts.

I could go on for a long time with this parable.

If you are a victim facing the death penalty, all I can say is this.

This death sentence can be retried. Demand it.

There have been many invitations to die, but I hope you live to shame.

Naoki Urasawa’s Monster stirred a young mind in me. It was rare to find a manga that taught me the difference between a saviour and a god when everyone else was so chaotic and “I don’t believe in god”. It was popular in the UK and I read it in the UK. The main character, Tenma, knows Johan’s real name, but it is not revealed until the end. He was a beast, but he was also a man. He was the victim of an East German conspiracy, but he was also a sinner.

That is why they did not give the saint the same name as his real name. He was wonderfully faithful to Revelation 13, which he used as a quote.

Revelation is about a man named John, but the author is unknown.


Johan Liebert is the titular character in “Monster“but Not drawn by the author. It’s a homage.
Author unknown. Additions are required.



母さん はなさないで

Monster 浦沢直樹















































The Little Mermaid and Christian Existentialism(English.ver)

Edmund Dulac
Night after night, morning after morning, the little mermaid went to the beach to see if she could find her prince.

Andersen's The Little Mermaid

Andersen’s “The Little Mermaid” is one that makes me think over and over again. I won’t comment on the Disney version

I’m not going to comment on the Disney version of “The Little Mermaid” because I don’t care for it, but many commentaries on the original story end with the Little Mermaid turning into bubbles and dying, when in fact there is more to the story.

But in fact there is more to the story. The little mermaid, who did not get a human soul, does not go to heaven but becomes a spirit. It is explained to her that she is not a bad spirit and that she can go to heaven after 300 years. If she comes into contact with a good child, her day will be one day earlier, but if she meets a bad child, it will be one day later. Andersen’s message to the children is.

Be a good boy so that the Little Mermaid can go to heaven as soon as possible.

The Little Mermaid is made up of three main elements.

(1) existentialism


(3)Christian thought

The Little Mermaid is said to have been influenced by Fouquet’s “Undine”. For the Christian world, the Holy Spirit of water lives apart from the grace of God. Probably this is based on the biblical interpretation that water existed from the beginning of Genesis. Such a confrontational being tries to become a human being, which makes the reader imagine what it means to be human. The setting was such that a being like the Little Mermaid would not be as short-lived as a human being. And most of all, they were afraid of death. Mermaids can live for 300 years, but after death they turn into bubbles.In the world of mermaids, the old people do not doubt that they are happy to live 300 years longer and drift away in bubbles, and only the youngest mermaid princess yearns for human death and soul. Only the youngest, the mermaid princess, yearns for human death and the soul, as well as for eternity.

For her, it was “love” that gave her the opportunity to do so. The world of mermaids can ascend to the world of humans at the age of 15. For these girls, it was their one chance to see the world that God had created. Each of the sisters has seen the world of God’s grace in different ways. From the bottom of the water to the top, it is the same for the believer to see each landscape. It is often misunderstood that each landscape is different, just as each believer is unique, even though they read the same Bible. The immanent world of the mermaid (later refuted by Husserl) is existentialist, just as Kierkegaard said that we must quit chasing ‘truth’ and challenge philosophy by separating philosophy from theology. Only the youngest, the Little Mermaid, has acquired something called “love”. Love is the feeling of wanting to connect with someone. With the occult mysticism of the witch, she became a human being.

However, she has lost her voice and her legs hurt. To get rid of this, she had to be discovered by the prince.

The Little Mermaid is a symbol of the “poor” for Andersen. The mermaid is a symbol of the “poor ” for Andersen, a man who had almost no human rights, but who thought calmly about how he could get his rights, which were financial. In the world of the Bible, language is considered to be important. That’s what the first chapter of John’s Gospel says This is because in the first chapter of John’s Gospel, the Logos hymn, “With God was speech”, is also attributed to man.

The pain in the feet is because the legs were the proof that he had become a man from a mermaid, and because the biblical world values that there is always suffering during life.

When you read the original story in detail, the Little Mermaid is actually loved by the prince. He is searching for the little mermaid after she has fallen and disappeared. The prince and princess are grieving the loss of the little mermaid and are staring at the sea foam.

It was agape, not dyeing, not erosive. It is perhaps ironic that the poorer a person is, the less he or she is able to achieve real happiness and the more he or she has to depend on God’s love, the love of God, the love that surrounds him or her, agape. In order to exist as a human being, the Little Mermaid had to obtain something substantial.In order to have human rights, she had to belong to an authority such as a prince.In order to have human rights, she had to belong to an authority such as a prince.  The love of marriage is substantial and mysterious.

Marriage is one of the most mysterious things in Christendom. The irony of this is existentialism and realism. This story exists in both.

At first glance, “I fell in love with a prince” seems like an optimistic dream.

Compared with, for example, Charles Perrault’s fairy tales about a nobleman’s daughter, Andersen’s cruelty is out of line. But he believed in the love of God.

This drift is well expressed in Andersen’s work.

I have heard that the only people who were not hostile to Andersen were the children he read to.I have heard it said. He wanted the children to love the Little Mermaid, to feel pure pity for her. And we read to them to remind them to be good so that she can go to heaven one day.

And as we grow older, we are influenced again and again by the pure love of the Little Mermaid.  She must have found happiness. She fell in love with a prince in the world of God’s grace.

She fell in love with a prince in the world of God’s grace.

This is not a sad story. It is a look at what we do.

MakotoTakahashi”The little Mermaid”


Edmund Dulac























Favorite Bible quote

Love is patient,love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking,it is not easily angered,it keeps no record of wrongs.Love does not delight in evil. but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.Love never fails.

1 Corinthians 13:4〜8

愛は寛容であり、愛は親切です。また人をねたみません。愛は自慢せず、高慢になりません。礼儀に反することをせず、自分の利益を求めず、怒らず、人のした悪を思わず、不正を喜ばずに真理を喜びます。すべてをがまんし、すべてを信じ、すべてを期待し、すべてを耐え忍びます。愛は決して絶えることがありません。(コリント人への手紙I 13:4〜8)

Make Japanese sense into English.

Sun and Steel (English.ver)

Outline of this post.

In 2018, during my recuperation period after a suicide attempt, I read Yukio Mishima" The Sun and Steel." In it, he wrote about feelings that were neither fiction nor criticism.
He wrote about "confession" at night, "criticism" by day, and a time when he was neither.

I will taste this neither time until 2021.

The book, which was also the subject of a controversial debate at the University of Tokyo (1969), seems not to have been appreciated in Japan at the time. I have been on the road from leaving Catholicism to conversion.
I was struggling to talk about this mortal disease in my story. Would it be non-fiction, or should I force it to be fiction? Whether I choose the sun or the night.

There was also the question of Catholicism and the political uncertainty of the future in Japan. For many years, I had forgotten the poetry of Mishima response to the sun.
In 2021, I have decided to move on to the night (literature).
This involves a lot of interpretation on my part. In Sartre's terms, it is "the other with the subject".

Apologies that this is not a thorough explanation of the sun and Steel.

The” Sun and Steel” was one of Yukio Mishima lesser-known works at the time. After a long time.I read this in 2018 and found much to sympathies with. I read this in 2018 and found much to sympathies with. In the process of writing, some things are difficult to express even as a novel. I too fell into that groove around 2017. Probably every artist. I feel like it comes to every artist. Sometimes we can’t establish ourselves because we are confused by current trends or common perceptions.  Mishima described it as an intermediate form between confession and criticism, “a kind of hidden criticism”.

Mishima is perhaps the only person who has focused on the area of twilight that exists between night as confession and day as criticism.

Sartre’s raison d’etre about existence and essence is that existence precedes essence, but this kind of wayward speculation, a combination of fiction and criticism, is a wandering interior that does not know the outer skin of existence, and is itself an embryo that does not know the outer world (essence).

It is the equivalent of inference, prediction and prophecy. When the result is not yet known, even if we think we have grasped the essence, we cannot be sure. A novel does not have enough material to be written, and a criticism is only an assumption made a few years in the future. But there are times when the feeling is strong.

At such times, I think back to Van Gogh’s Madness paintings.

His paintings were first of all existentially unsuccessful. Later, his brother Theo’s wife succeeded in selling Van Gogh’s paintings and made him into the genius that he is today. Over time, they created the essence of Van Gogh’s paintings. Over time, they created the essence of Van Gogh’s paintings, or the world discovered them.

The Starry Night
This is one of my favorite Van Gogh paintings. I don’t know of any other painting that depicts the stirring darkness so clearly.

I think Mishima is right when he declares in this book that he is not a poet. Poets, like Van Gogh’s paintings, are not afraid of consequences, and they do not fall between confession and criticism. Hermann Hesse is a genius as a poet and Rubaiyat dances without fear of criticism from Christians.

It seems to me that Iran is famous for its poets. Perhaps they are not afraid of death (or the oppression of others). That free enthusiasm, which neither the cooperation of the Japanese nor the argumentative nature of the West can match, is something to be admired and, as a result of more social experience, I think we will never have it again. We all dream of it and run with it, but the tragedy and happiness that we have created with our speculations, from pacifisms, through physical pain, gradually becomes a reality.

When I was young, I would have run without fear. In the midst of it all, joy and despair, like differential and integral calculus, were repeated, and expectation and despair may have exceeded real reality. In the midst of this repetition of the mundane routine, where sleep brings morning and daily life again, I had my moments of real despair.

In turn, disappointment and disillusionment increased, becoming part of the larger reality of the real world.

Gradually, disappointment and disillusionment increase, and the artist becomes part of the larger existential context of the real world.

That’s the end of the artist. It is only natural that he should lose his individuality.

I’m trying to be unique because of my long established taste, but my body is screaming. The days when I used to write poetry in the evening, even if it was bad, seem like a lie.

It was a mistake in the first place to see it as a defeat. The thought of being abandoned by night and day

It will always go somewhere. It is like a long, inflexible Steel. That is how I see it.

In my analysis, Mishima Steel element probably became the sun and led to his suicide.

I have decided, after a long time, to return to the Night once more. That’s when I retired as a journalist. It is proof that I am no longer outspoken about current affairs. The man who lives by night lives for the invisible presence of human sensibility. The man who lives by day lives for the market and the human condition.

There is no right or wrong, because both are necessary.

But when speech and knowledge are wasted, it is tempting to talk about real problems.

Isn’t it the starting point of a literary person to keep that ” babble ” silent until night?

I will not write directly about why I attempted suicide, or the process of my conversion. Instead, I will start to confess, as if in the night, my memories and records were a wild reflection.

In this fictional world, the person who speaks for me is a man and other women, and the story goes on. There is, in effect, a fictional character (a lie). But the essence is not a lie. Within the non-existent outer skin, there is an interior that I have experienced and gone through.

I have read a lot of Mishima during my illness. But I chose a different path from him.

In his writings he wrote

“Now I no longer believe with all my heart in the idea of classicism, about which I was so passionate at the age of twenty-six. I no longer believe in it with all my heart”

I might not have the awe-inspiring ardor of my youth, either. I sympathies with him in this confession under the sun.

But, like the protagonist of the piano tuner I am writing about, I intend to expand the literature to say that sound does not die. In the despair of the protagonist, my inner light is incorporated.

It is with God.


絵:柿本セエカ“Bottled Griefs”














信者もいる。私もその一人だ。恐らく少なくともこの問題を理解している信者は「深淵」に目を向けている。イエスが磔刑の前夜にēli ēli lemā sabachthani(我が神、我が神、何故お見捨てになったのですか)と叫んだ後に、何故神は沈黙されたのか。私にその問いをしたのは神学者の和田幹男神父だった。彼は深淵について語った。それはフロイトの無意識、ユングの集合的無意識よりも更に深いところにあるとされる。それが深淵であると。ゆっくり経験をしていけば、かならず大きな渦を描いて見えると教えてくれた。








Biblical Real image of Angels English .ver

Chiesa della Martorana


  1. The Bible and Mental Functions
  2. Why I pursue angels
  3. Fr. Kabundi Honoré’ ” Biblical Real image of Angels”
  4. The meaning of my love for the Bible

 Reading the Bible makes us aware of various psychological functions. Whether this is a figment of our imagination or an archaeological fact, we experience rational (thoughts and feelings) and irrational (sensations and intuition) functions before the factual conclusion. The proposal of psychological functions is based on C. G. Jung, but those of us for whom Christianity is not the state religion will first judge whether we like the story or not (feelings). Next, we will reach to capture the system of the Bible (feeling). Then we analyses the content (thoughts), and intuitively we may temporarily try to explain the nature of Adam and Eve in Genesis, for example, and talk passionately about why women suffer. There are many choices: to repeat it again and again with changing thoughts, or to stop reading it because you don’t like it; but the person who does not let go of the Bible connects the experience of the outer world to the growth of the inner world. Following Jesus is when we reach out from our built-up inner world to the outer world.

 It is service. It is love. It is evangelization.

 At the same time, reading the biblical world requires a dynamic of imagination. Whether imaginary, dreamy or pictorial, what is clear is that there are no glib metaphors in the Bible. Many obstacles lie in the way of faith. This is because people’s psychological functions are processed differently from person to person, whether they become occultists and cults or exemplary Christians like Edith Stein.

The theologian Balthasar declared Angels as Mirrors of the Human. It is the way of theology. I leave behind those who dismiss this as pictorial. The Catholic Catechism states that angels are Messengers. As I wrote above, angels do not appear to people whose inner world is clouded. Angels play an important role in proving that one’s inner world is not clouded. Throughout history, poets and writers have attempted to return to nature through various poetic inspirations, which have also preceded philosophy and psychology. If not for German mysticism, philosophy would not have been derived until the present day. The Bible is a necessary part of the history of human wisdom, and we must not forget that there are still unknowns. It is important to read it again and again, to repeat its psychological functions and to grasp how it moves towards the existence of the world.

 I love angels first of all because as a feeling I find them beautiful, and because intuitively they do not seem to be the product of a pictorial imagination. Although I have been thinking about how to express and prove this sense and intuition for a long time, angels have not been dealt with much even in Catholicism; in 2018 the Pope talked about angels, but for a while they did not seem to be a topic of conversation in Japan. So I gradually gave up the pursuit of angels.

Recently, I came across a good book.

Fr. Kabundi Honoré’sbook ” Biblical Real image of Angels” was published by the Orient Institute of Religion. I had given up the pursuit of angels. The fog that had been clouding the mirror seemed to have lifted. The mirror shone with light.

 I found it fortunate and opportune that Father was living in Japan, so I contacted him. He was very kind and told me why he had written this book. He told me that he had been travelling around Japan with his silent retreats, communing with the faithful and felt the need to draw their attention to the presence and work of the angels in order to help them develop their spirituality.

Father Honoré’s book was both scholarly and beautifully written, as if the Holy Spirit were present in the words.

Book index

Ⅰ:Angels created by God

Ⅱ:The Angelic Ranks

Ⅲ:Exceptional angels mentioned in the Bible

Ⅳ:The appearance of angels

Ⅴ:Angels’ sins and destiny

Ⅵ:Demonic means of control over man

Ⅶ:Following the angels in the spiritual life

This work is wonderful because it includes the angels of the Old Testament book of Daniel, which is not often explained by Catholics. It is important to note that angels do not float, but fly. The popular non-biblical view of angels equates angels with God and does not understand angels as floating messengers. By biblical, I mean that angels have a purpose. Flight is having a purpose. This book is a very clear explanation of the whole of biblical angels and the purpose for which they appear.

 The book not only deepens our spirituality, but the stories of angels in the Bible, which are mystical in their own right, can be used to interpret the images of angels left behind by many great writers. For example, even the works of Balzac, Rilke and Shelley, who professed to be non-Catholic, often drew on the Bible for their angelic attributes. The unity and difference between the love we seek and the love angels give, the fact that angels are not gendered, the dynamism of people’s imagination and creation.

Only when people contemplate can the mystery live on. How does it happen that the dreaming of man coincides with the works of God? It is to trace what the flight of angels is like.

It might be to realize “the reflection of the purest thing” (André Paul Guillaume Gide)

It is only through faith that forgetfulness can become a mystery to accumulated memories, experiences and paradoxes.

Shakespeare said: “All the world’s a stage,And all the men and women merely players.”The stage is full of tragedy, comedy, folly, despair and cruelty. Nothing in his work has ever been made happy by breaking a biblical commandment. Hamlet completely loses his reason and even loses his beloved Ophelia to madness. Shakespeare could not have created such a tragedy without the foundation of the Bible and faith. He was well aware of the retribution brought about by the god of the script. A life that does not go mad like Hamlet’s is an angel’s inner mirror (Balthazar).

Tragedy repeats itself, but the life God has given us in this world can be made meaningful through agape and gratitude. That is certain. Simply writing about human hatred does not capture the essence of the story. In order to find the divine retribution and miracles, we need to feel our own heat through faith.

To do this, we need to know the angels better. Angels are complicated when it comes to explaining their relationship to the Trinity, but this labyrinth is the purest space of existence. Because it is pure, there are fallen angels. Even the angels let us know that we are losing the light.

It is rare to find a book so dedicated to the angels of the Bible.


Angels are mentioned at least one hundred and eight times in the Old Testament and one hundred and sixty-five times in the New Testament.

Chapter Ⅰ – God’s Creation of Angels

Thus, the angels, before the Fall, were revealed to be very noble, sublime angels, full of wisdom and crystal.

Chapter V‐The sins and destiny of the Angels

The angels are not omniscient.

Chapter Ⅶ – Spiritual life in imitation of Angels

God does not allow us to worship angels. The Apostle Paul clearly warns against it.

Chapter Ⅶ Spiritual life in imitation of Angels

About the Author

Fr. Kabundi Honoré


(Language: Japanese)

The Catholic Catechism 328-336


  1. 聖書と心的機能について
  2. 私が天使を追及する理由
  3. ガブンディ・オノレ神父様の「聖書が語る天使の実像」の紹介
  4. 私が考える聖書を通して学ぶ意味




 それを説明するかのように神学者のバルタザールはAngels as Mirrors of the Humanと言った。ここからが、神学の道となる。これを絵空事として切り捨ててしまうのか、私はここで切り捨てた人を置いていく。人間の鏡とする天使、とはカトリックのカテキズムにあるように天使はMessengerである事を表している。先程の説明にあったように内面世界が曇った人間には、天使は映らない。天使は自分の内面世界が曇っていないかどうかを証明する重要な役割なのである。長い歴史の中で詩人や文学者は様々な詩的霊感によって自然に戻ろうとし、哲学や心理学の先行ともなっている。ドイツ神秘主義がなければ現代まで哲学は派生していない。聖書は人間の知恵の歴史として必要な存在であり、まだ未知のものがあることを忘れてはならない。何度も読んで心理的機能を繰り返し、世界の存在に向かってどう進んでいくのかを捉えていくことが重要である。







  • 神に創造された天使
  • 天使の位階
  • 聖書で言及される特別な天使
  • 天使の外観
  • 天使たちの罪と運命
  • 人間を支配するための悪魔の手段
  • 天使に倣う霊的生活













第五章 天使たちの罪と運命


第七章 天使に倣う霊的生活


第七章 天使に倣う霊的生活



Kabundi honoré cicm



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Amour et Justice. English Ver

movie: Son of God

(Paul Ricoeur, Love and Justice, a book I would recommend to young philosophers and theologians)

 If justice is possible because of love, can we call it love when a person is punished for doing justice, for example, the ” Capital Punishment “? Thus, love and justice are always dichotomous. Paul Ricœur’s book is a dialectical meditation on this dichotomy, trying to bridge the gap.

The point to be kept in mind is that “love” refers to Jesus Christ and “justice” to Moses.

Justice is concerned with social practice, while love is at best a motive. Justice, on the contrary, is more likely to have a narrow effect and less likely to be widely applied. We can see this in the history of Moses, when we consider the number of deaths. Even though the love of Jesus is slow in spreading, it spreads to many people. That movement is also called the grace of God. Justice is the spear, love is the shield. What non-Christians misunderstand is that they do not distinguish between God’s love and justice. (I don’t mean that as an evil thing.)

Particularly the Catholic emphasis on “God is love” has led to a number of misunderstandings.

And these misunderstandings are not limited to misunderstandings, they are also flaws in social practice due to the distorted interpretation of love. At the point where crimes committed by the clergy are covered up, for example, when clergy talk about God’s forgiveness for crimes, they are criticized in social practice as “they are distorting love”. However, through my experience as a journalist, I have also witnessed victim fraud. This experience has made me realize that the distortion of “love” is not enough. The testimony of victims, between lies and illness, takes advantage of people’s conscience and justice. It causes us to lose sight of the direction of justice.

 To contemplate the dichotomy between love and justice is labour intensive and unrewarding. Many Hebrews would not have been saved if the revolution had not taken place in the time of Moses. This was the proper love and justice of the time. At the time of Jesus’ birth, it was hoped that he would be a revolutionary like Moses, but he did not make any great revolution. At first people were disappointed, but Jesus went to the poor on his own feet and saved them through love. Love is thus slow to progress and is attacked and persecuted by those who fail to understand it. Jesus’ quintessence of ‘love’ is that his justice was not in escaping justice, but in accepting the death penalty.

His justice was not in escaping justice, it was in accepting the death penalty, which is the essence of “sacrifice”, of love, of covering up all the sins of others. For those who follow Jesus, the practice of this supreme justice is no different from suicide, and whether or not Jesus himself would want people to do this has yet to be archaeologically proven. The same is true of martyrdom itself, which is not yet clear whether Jesus would have wanted it or not. But nowadays martyrdom is considered a virtue and worthy of praise, provided that the conditions are fulfilled. (Song of Solomon: Love is as strong as death)

 Reading the Bible is like looking into the mirror of one’s self, a chapter which was originally in the book but was left out in the Japanese version because it was incomplete as a philosophy. This imperfection must be challenged by us, the next generation. We must return to the question of what the Bible exists for. We should read it honestly before we listen to the answers of the clergy. I urge young people to do this especially. The question that arises in the Bible is the self itself. It is a mistake to look for answers in a story, but the questions raised by the story are a guide on the journey to reality. As Paul Ricoeur says of love, it can be spoken of in both shallow and deep ways. The same is true of stories. They are made both shallow and deep. The Bible is considered a deep book, but it is less and less necessary for modern people. It was known that the world was falling according to gravity, though it was also the fall of the world. Probably the reason for the lack of attention is that there is something about Christians and the clergy that is not respected.

 The bible has been around for a long time and has been interpreted by many different people. It was important that there were great men in it that we would still want to study. But we don’t have them today. They may exist, but they are not easy to find. When we lose our bearings, we need to go back to the basics of self-image as seen in the Bible. That is why the inscription on the temple of Apollo at Delphi, which existed before the Bible, says: “Know thyself”.

When you ask a Catholic priest a question, you will get a dozen different answers. The views of the Pope and theologians continue to change. However, we will come to realise this. People touched by the love of Jesus do good works voluntarily. It is not that Jesus is the only one, but that people are voluntarily awakening their conscience. I want people to know this glimmer in this age of information overload.

Paul Ricoeur’s philosophy, although it is an application of earlier phenomenology, is a “narrative theology”, the origin of the idea of the existence of Jesus. We recommend his book to many believers and students of theology who, in the future, will encounter incredible absurdities and disappointments. Paul Ricœur is a philosophy of problematic regression.


The thought which seeks to understand God is always brought back to the story. God’s thought can only be conceived as a narrated version of a story in which the concept is carefully checked. Thus, if a thought is to think of God, it must hear the story being told.

And again, ” God seeks to be told”

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