At that moment, that monster appeared in front of me.

Was Mom trying to help me?
Was she confusing me with my sister?
Which one?

Mom！ don't let go!

Monster Naoki Urasawa

Sometimes I believe that being a victim is like being in a prison camp. Once you have tasted it, you can’t communicate it to others, even in your own language.

Since birth, I have found myself in the camps many times. The first one I remember was when I was seven years old. It was a female teacher. If my ego, my present experience, was broken, it was because of this teacher. Still, no one helped me. In the midst of hatred and sorrow, I found the light. That was the first liberation. I don’t know who was teaching me at that time. But my monologue grew as I acquired a phenomenological vision.　The sky in my memory was always blue, but the words were always gloomy. This was affirmed by psychology. It said that man is a coexistence of the definite and the anti-definite.

In phenomenology, the “moment”, the present rather than the future or the past, becomes prominent.  In it, the childhood mind imagined the light of the future in the “moment”. That was my sustenance. As he entered the camp again and again, he noticed that the light was becoming weaker and weaker. When the light gets weaker, I notice that I have compatriots. I can see better in the dark, I guess that’s a sign that I’ve grown up.

I’ve seen all kinds of victims, and I’ve seen people who choose to go to jail. The highest penalty for perpetrators is the death penalty and victims also go to jail.

I’ve seen it happen to some people, they think they’re going to die.

I find myself saying to myself.

“Forget it”

Then the signal for release rings and I am let out. My wounds had healed and I had no right to speak. My words became a barrier between us and the rest of the camp.

On love and justice, I have written repeatedly since the opening of this blog that love and justice can be contradictory, but this time I would like to talk about John Paul II.　Mehmet Ali Ağca , a Turk, shot John Paul II on May 13, 1981, but saved his life.　Mehmet Ali Ağca was sentenced to life in prison, but was pardoned by the Pope who shot him.

 John Paul II was later the victim of another assassination attempt, and in his later years he suffered from Parkinson’s disease and the after-effects of the assassination attempt.

Mehmet Ali Ağca was saddened by the Pope’s death and was only allowed to offer flowers; I only know that he hopes to be a Catholic priest in 2016, but I am not certain.

I don’t know what was truly in John Paul II’s heart, but his writings are full of light.

I do not know the true heart of John Paul II, but his writings are full of light, and they are also full of darkness. It is beside the light.

It is not a warning to blind sinners, but a guide to the lost sheep.

In the chapter “The Rejection of the World” of ” Opens the Door to Hope” he says: “When the true teaching is unpopular. When the true teaching is unpopular, it is unacceptable to seek easy popularity”.

The camps in which the victims were held were also filled with rivalries. Invariably, people with revolutionary fantasies would begin to attack others.

They start attacking people. Then there is a thinly-veiled gathering of those who have been “deceived by simple words”.The victims suffer not only temporary damage, but also secondary and tertiary damage, the rejection of the world.

Jesus Christ says in Matthew 7:13,14 that the road to eternal salvation is neither wide nor comfortable, but rather narrow and difficult. The Saviour Christ, whom the masses misunderstand, does not teach a comfortable way.

He does not teach a comfortable path. In fact, many people mistake God for the Saviour and criticise him.

Sometimes the Saviour is really an “idol” created for the world or by popular desire.

Victims are the “idols” to whom we must pay attention. If you know what this means, you know what it was like to be a victim in a prison camp. When they go out, they will not forget what it was like there. Those who don’t know what it means are hypocrites who don’t know that they are the mass media and that they are hurting people. He is a delusional revolutionary who never doubts his own “goodness”.

People who don’t know the threat of the sword are hurting many people with their pens.

They are no longer heading for the camps of the victims.

It is heading for the real prison, where criminals go.

In the book of Revelation, the beast is a number and has no name. Revelation 13 speaks of a beast with ten horns and seven heads, “Who can stand against this beast? 　Who can fight against this beast? The answer was a demand for wisdom. (Verse 18)

The wise man should consider what the number of the beast means.

The number represents man.

The beast is man. Those who know this are humble.

The hypocrite only wants others to bear arms. The Saviour lets them know that he heals.

The hypocrite is quick to invite sympathy with weakness. The Saviour bears his wounds in silence. For he knows that the hypocrite will come soon.

I couldn’t say “forget it” to one of the victims who was more pitiful than me.

I will never forget the darkness, because it is still on my mind. I wonder where he was taken.

I wonder where he was taken. I wonder if he ever saw the light.

It is the hypocrites of today who have cut off the network of communication.

What is easy to understand tells us about darkness. What is hard to understand is that we all have it.

We all have it. We all have a beast in our hearts.

I could go on for a long time with this parable.

If you are a victim facing the death penalty, all I can say is this.

This death sentence can be retried. Demand it.

There have been many invitations to die, but I hope you live to shame.

Naoki Urasawa’s Monster stirred a young mind in me. It was rare to find a manga that taught me the difference between a saviour and a god when everyone else was so chaotic and “I don’t believe in god”. It was popular in the UK and I read it in the UK. The main character, Tenma, knows Johan’s real name, but it is not revealed until the end. He was a beast, but he was also a man. He was the victim of an East German conspiracy, but he was also a sinner.

That is why they did not give the saint the same name as his real name. He was wonderfully faithful to Revelation 13, which he used as a quote.

Revelation is about a man named John, but the author is unknown.